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Love and EmberassmentI broke my nose when I was a kid. I think I now have what they called a deviated septum, so it’s not like it matters. There’s blood all over my sheets, the teddy bear I sleep on - the one she gave me, my blankets. It’s everywhere. It’s everywhere but all in the same it’s nowhere.
She slapped me so hard she broke my nose. It was the kind of slap Rick James gave to Charlie Murphy. She threw the ring on the ground, slammed the door, and left. I could barely here her murmuring to herself as the door closed. It was the type of door slamming your father does after an argument. There was no argument. It was clear cut as a crystal. I couldn’t defend myself. No, I could, but I wouldn’t. I would never defend myself. I have what she used to call ethics.
I’m just kidding, there was never a ring. The ring.
She yells at me, “what in the hell were you fucking thinking?”. She’s right up in my face, maybe, at most, two inches away. When
HumilityTo preface this story,
my first job,
at the age of 15,
was at a department store
in New London, Connecticut
which is a ghetto.
Saturday’s I worked 9 in the morning
to 9 at night.
At exactly 8 AM I would take my antidepressant, and
at exactly 8 PM I would go to the break room
and get the vacuum cleaner
anything was better then standing at a cash register
for 12 hours;
and at 8:40
I would collect the shopping carts in the parking lot
and return them inside the store.
I woke up on June 12th, 2010
3 days after my 16th birthday.
at 8:40 AM.
It took 15 minutes to get to work
and I liked to arrive 5 minutes early
so I forgot to take my pills that day.
I stood at the cash register
like any other day
for my 12 hour shift.
At 8 PM I got the vacuum cleaner
and at 8:40 I went to the parking lot
to collect the shopping carts.
My camaro was the only car left in the parking lot
and as I walked towards it to warm the engine,
so I wasn’t driving home i
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